Zang Fu Theory, Part 1: Herutsu (Heart) by Lotus Moon



Summary: Sanzo and Hakkai are called away in the middle of the night to help a severely injured farmer and Gojyo is left babysitting a dragon.
Rating: R
Categories: Saiyuki
Characters: Cho Hakkai
Genres: Romance
Warnings: M/M
Challenges: None
Series: None
Published: 05/22/08
Updated: 06/24/08


Index

Chapter 1: Chapter 1
Chapter 2: Part 2: Pericardium (Heart Protector)
Chapter 3: Part 3: San Jiao (Triple Burner)
Chapter 4: Chapter 4: Jinzou Root of Life


Chapter 1: Chapter 1

Author's Notes: Zang-Fu theory is a concept within traditional Chinese medicine that describes the functions of the organs of the body and the interactions that occur between them. The organs are associated energetically with the five elements of wood, fire, earth, water and metal. The Herutsu (Heart) is the Home of the Shen (Aggregate Soul) and is associated with Fire.


Sanzo was sitting up, gun leveled at the closed door before it registered what had brought him out of a dead sleep. He held his breath as he strained for it, and there it was, a creak in the hallway and a shadow moving past the strip of light at the bottom of the door. He slowly released his breath and slid his legs out from under the covers, keeping the gun steady. It was warm, so he was sleeping shirtless, in a pair of old worn jeans. When his bare feet touched the wooden floor, purple eyes flicked to the bed on his right. Hakkai was already sitting up sideways on the bed in his drawstring pajama bottoms, wearing his glasses and calmly watching the door as well.

"Damn," Sanzo thought.

He hadn't seen Hakkai move at all, and he had excellent peripheral vision. Which meant the brown-haired man had awoken, fetched his glasses from the night stand, moved out from under the covers and sat up, all the while making less noise five feet away from Sanzo than whoever it was in the hallway fifteen feet away. Either that, or he had become so accustomed to Hakkai's presence that when the other man moved around while he was vulnerable he didn't wake up.

Sanzo preferred believing Hakkai possessed supernatural cat-like stealth.

The shadow stopped at the middle of the door.

Tap tap.

Sanzo thumbed the hammer back into place and lowered the gun. Assassins didn't knock.

"Yes?" Hakkai asked, soft voice carrying easily in the quiet.

The door eased open, and Sanzo shot the innkeeper an annoyed glare before shoving the gun back under the pillow. He reached for the pack of cigarettes and lighter he had tossed onto the night stand which had miraculously become neatly stacked next to a clean ashtray that had been half-full of butts when he fell asleep.

The blonde allowed himself a soft snort of amusement as he lit up. Hakkai's face tilted slightly in his direction, but the polite smile didn't waver as he apparently gave the distraught innkeeper his undivided attention. Sanzo took a long drag and fixed his gaze on the window, drawing a knee up and laying his arm across it. Through the stream of smoke, he watched the innkeeper's reflection in the glass as he spoke urgently of a farmhouse fire, trying not to look over at the silent monk.

Sanzo almost snorted again. They always trusted Hakkai. Quiet, polite, smiling, self-effacing, apparently harmless Hakkai. Morons. Out of the entire group, the bespectacled youkai was the most dangerous.

Hakkai walked the innkeeper to the door, murmuring assurances as the overwrought man threw a nervous glance at Sanzo over his shoulder. Hakkai firmly shut the door and walked back to the beds. Squinting through the twisting tendrils of smoke, Sanzo watched Hakkai's fractured reflection in the panes of dark glass. His gaze lingered on the ragged scar snaking up from the waistband of his pajamas.

The first year on the road, Hakkai always managed to keep the scar covered, sleeping in buttoned up pajama tops or shirts even in the most sweltering nights in an airless tent. When had the quiet man become so comfortable walking around shirtless, scar naked? Perversely, Sanzo felt less perturbed about not waking up when Hakkai had earlier. Perhaps he wasn't the only one... becoming accustomed.

The calm gaze was waiting for him in the window when Sanzo's eyes moved up. Green looking through glass into glass and locking with purple. Reflections of reflections. Moonlight struck Hakkai's glasses and obscured his eyes as he bent forward.

"Sanzo, please open the window when you smoke," Hakkai admonished gently, flipping the latch and swinging the wooden frames open.

Grudgingly, Sanzo scooted closer to the window and blew the next stream of smoke outside. Hakkai pulled his bag from under his bed and removed clean travel clothes, setting the neatly folded bundle on the covers. Swiveling on his heels, the healer pulled Sanzo's bag out.

"You don't honestly think I give a crap about some farmer," Sanzo muttered.

Hakkai continued unpacking clothes as if he hadn't spoken. The breastplate followed the robe, then the sash, shirt, arm bands, socks...

"Now, now, I know you don't mean that," Hakkai said.

Smiling, Hakkai picked up the pile of his clothes and went into the bathroom.

"Dammit," Sanzo stubbed out his cigarette and snagged his shirt.

* * *


"I don't like it, 'Kai," Gojyo groused, rubbing his sleep-stubbled cheek to wake himself up.

The hanyou was sitting up in bed, elbows resting on his drawn-up knees. Since he was sharing the room, he made the concession of sleeping in a ratty pair of drawstring sweatpants instead of in the nude as he preferred. Despite the "pervert" accusations of the monk, Gojyo's sleeping preference was actually due to the fact that he was a very warm sleeper. Even in the winter he rarely needed more than a light blanket. He raked a hand through his fine red hair, unknowingly making the sleep-mussed cloud stand out more.

"It's a mission of mercy, Gojyo," Hakkai said softly, batting away Gojyo's hand.

The brunette produced a comb from his pocket in the same miraculous fashion Sanzo was able to produce that damned harisen from his robes. Very gently, Hakkai began untangling the long, silky strands, smoothing behind the comb with the palm of his hand. Gojyo unconsciously leaned into the caress. Hakkai was the only person he let mess with his hair.

"That's not what I mean," Gojyo murmured, crimson eyes half-closed in pleasure. "First, the pissy priest snags you for a roomie and leaves me stuck with the snoring monkey..."

Both men turned and looked at the occupant of the other bed. Goku was tangled in the covers, arms and legs thrown wide, half hanging off the bed. His mouth was open, a glistening line of drool coming from the corner of his mouth along with an impressive amount of noise. The grating sound reminded Gojyo of a locust. A swarm of locust. A swarm of giant locust...

"Hm." Hakkai gave a firm tug on a lock of hair as he put away the comb with the other hand, drawing Gojyo's attention back to him.

"And now he's draggin' you off in the middle of the night without..." Gojyo almost said "me", but managed at the last second to catch himself. "...us."

It wasn't exactly like he was jealous of Lord High and Mighty with his pretty face and white, flawless skin... Gojyo gave the practiced little flick of his head that let his hair slip over his shoulder and curtain his left cheek, hiding the two parallel scars. It was just annoying how when the crappy monk spent time alone with any of them, it was almost always with his Hakkai, and the quiet healer always went along with it and did whatever Sanzo said. He liked it better when it was just him and Hakkai.

After all, he was the one who found Hakkai; he was the one who gave up smoking for fuck's sake while he was healing up. Hakkai was his roommate. Hakkai was his best friend. Hakkai was, just, well, his. And Gojyo didn't like sharing. He'd had so little in his life that belonged just to him and him alone.

Crimson eyes rose to meet green as Hakkai brushed the hair back from Gojyo's face, cool fingertips ghosting over the scars before his hand dropped to rest on a bare shoulder. Gojyo's face flushed, but he didn't drop his eyes. Hakkai read him like an open book; a large-print book with illustrations.

"We should be back by morning," Hakkai said, squeezing the shoulder and standing up. "I'm leaving Hakuryu here since the farmer's son drove himself here in an ox-cart." Hakkai glanced at Gojyo over his shoulder as he opened the door. "Look after him for me, please, Gojyo."

"Great," Gojyo snorted, fishing around in the small pile of trash on the night stand for his cigarettes. "Another pest to babysit." When he felt Hakkai's smile chill, he held out a palm of peace. "I mean, yeah, sure, Kai. No problem."

Hakkai's smile warmed, and he nodded in satisfaction before leaving the little room, shutting the door behind him.

Gojyo lit the tip of the cigarette, and snapped the lighter closed, tossing it back into the middle of the pile on the table. A yen coin glittered on the table, and he idly wondered if he could chuck it into the Cavern of Winds across the room, then decided a snoring monkey was better than a chattering monkey. Shrugging his shoulders, Gojyo took a deep drag on the cigarette and lay back in bed, folding his left arm under his head.

There was no way he was going to be able to get back to sleep until Hakkai came back.

* * *


The farmer's son was a gangly, raw-boned boy perhaps thirteen years old at most, with hands that seemed too big for his wrists, yet wielded the reins on the ox-cart with confidence. Sanzo and Hakkai sat in the cart, their backs against the driver's bench as the boy, Wan Tu, told them what happened. Sanzo smoked silently, while Hakkai gathered the crucial details as painlessly as possible. It wasn't particularly strenuous; partly because the poor boy was in shock, and because the deft extraction of information was an art Hakkai had practiced all his life to the point he sometimes didn't even realize he was doing it. Information was power, and Hakkai had long ago swore he would never be powerless.

It had been a dry summer for this part of the country, apparently. Yesterday there had been an electrical storm, which they knew. Sanzo quirked an eyebrow at Hakkai. The ex-teacher had indulged in a long explanation of electrical storms for Goku when the boy had come running into their room, excited about "the fireworks". While the foursome had been enjoying the heavenly spectacle, it had turned deadly for this boy's father when a ball of lightning had struck the barn and it had exploded into flames like dry tinder touched by a lit match.

Hakkai smelled the charred wood and tasted burnt ozone in the air just as the cart crested a hill in the bumpy dirt road, then the black skeletal remains of the barn rose into view. It looked like a broken hand reaching up to grasp the sickle moon hanging low in the sky.

The charred wood smell was replaced with the sickening stench of burnt flesh and dying when the trio entered the farmhouse. When Hakkai got his first good look at the ruined mess of a man on the bed, he knew the boy had been overly optimistic going to town to fetch a healer. Hakkai saw Sanzo's fair brows draw down into a frown as he opened his mouth. The healer smoothly slipped between Sanzo and Wan Tu to prevent the blonde from stating the obvious and crushing the fragile hope in the boy's grieving face.

"I'll see what I can do," Hakkai said, ignoring Sanzo's sigh and kneeling next to the bed.

The healer discreetly breathed through his mouth to avoid gagging on the foul odor. He pulled back the worn, rough blanket, green eyes widening at the gruesome sight. The farmer's torso was red and blistered, but relatively intact, however, his limbs were charred through to the bone, hands and feet reduced to blackened knobs. Bloody bandages were wrapped around the man's eyes, and the rest of his face was the color of raw steak pimpled with yellowish-white pustules. All traces of hair were gone, the ears were merely holes in the sides of his head and his lips were peeled back like melted wax. Thin, wheezing breath rattled through blackened teeth. Even the man's shriveled tongue was black and blistered.

Hakkai had never seen anyone burned so horribly. How had the man managed to stay alive this long? Hakkai glanced up at the awkward boy standing in the shabby house utterly lacking in a woman's touch, and knew. The man had held on for his son. Through unimaginable agony, he had selflessly clung on to the torturous thing his very life must now be. Bile burned up Hakkai's throat unexpectedly, and he swallowed it back down.

"Sir?" Wan Tu asked, hands twisting in the front of his shirt.

"I'm afraid he's beyond healing," Hakkai said quietly, as if saying the words softly would lessen their impact. "But I can ease his pain a little."

The boy's eyes closed, and his bowed head jerked up and down twice in what Hakkai took to be consent.

"Hmph."

Hakkai looked back over his shoulder at Sanzo, who scowled at him. The healer raised an eyebrow, inviting the monk to say something. The scowl deepened.

"I'm going outside for a smoke," Sanzo muttered.

The blonde brushed past Hakkai so quickly the brown-haired man wasn't sure if the hand that touched his shoulder in passing was a pat or a shove. Before Hakkai could decide, Sanzo was gone. Dismissing it from his mind, Hakkai took a deep, steadying breath and marshaled his concentration for the task at hand. He visualized the chi resting in his center as a pool of light, and took a deep pull, channeling it up and through his arms. The reverse of swimming; instead of moving through the water, the water moved through him. The familiar tingling ran up under his skin. Attempting to explain the sensation to a curious Kappa, Hakkai had likened the sensation to when a limb falls asleep and comes awake again.

Because this was healing chi and not fighting chi, Hakkai didn't form the flare ball, but instead allowed the force to pool above his palms, creating a shimmer. Turning his hands over, the healer carefully poised the shimmer above the dying man, allowing the chi to flow slowly and steadily into the ruined flesh, cooling the burned nerves, extinguishing the thousand flares of pain.

A choking sound of surprise made Hakkai's eyes fly open, hands still hovering over the farmer. The blind, bandaged face turned towards him, mouth gaping wider. The shriveled tongue writhed like a leprous worm. Thinking the burned man meant to speak, Hakkai bent closer.

"Gnnahhhh..."

It was a dying man's final breath, hardly the first or most foul to brush Hakkai's face, but it was certainly the coldest. Closing his eyes, the youkai swallowed, feeling something hard and sharp go down, like a sliver of ice.

* * *


Sanzo squinted up at the night sky through the stream of cigarette smoke. He was pissed. He shouldn't have let Hakkai drag him out to this dirt farm in the middle of the night. He shouldn't be letting Hakkai waste his chi on a dead man. With a snort, Sanzo whipped the cigarette out of his mouth and threw it down, grounding the glowing stub out under his boot. Like anyone "let" Hakkai do anything.

"When did I become such a fucking pussy?" Sanzo muttered, rubbing his face and running a hand through his wind-tangled bangs.

A chill pricked the back of the monk's neck, sending goosebumps down his arms underneath the robe. Right hand sliding into his sleeve to touch the worn handle of the banishing gun, the blond man spun in the pale moonlight and ran back into the shack. His sharp eyes quickly assessed the situation. Boy, kneeling on the floor, praying and weeping. Dead man on the bed. Dumbass healer pouring chi into the corpse.

Raising the same boot that had just crushed out the cigarette, Sanzo kicked Hakkai in the shoulder, knocking the brown-haired man away from the bed to fall sideways in a boneless heap on the floor. Sanzo waited a moment, ignoring the boy rising to his feet with a cry. He could give a shit about the boy. The one he was concerned with was currently busy not moving.

"Damnit." Sanzo knelt beside Hakkai.

The healer's glasses had been knocked askew on his still face, eyes closed beneath the green headband holding back the wild shock of brown hair. With the precise care of a fellow eyeglass-wearer, Sanzo plucked up the spectacles, folded them closed and tucked them away into the sleeve of his robe. Violet eyes narrowed at the brief touch of his fingertips against Hakkai's cheek. Sanzo pressed the back of his hand firmly against the oval face. It was stone cold.

"How much chi did you drain, you idiot?" Sanzo demanded, not expecting an answer from the unconscious man, but pissed when there wasn't one anyway. The silence was further proof of the healer's massive demonstration of stupidity. The one man in the team he thought he could leave alone long enough for a smoke and not get himself killed or into some kind of trouble that would cause Sanzo a massive headache.

"W-what's wrong with him?" the boy asked.

"A lot," Sanzo snapped.

Pulling the lean man into a C-shape, Sanzo grasped his wrists in one hand and pulled Hakkai up and across his shoulders. With a grunt, he staggered to his feet, shifting Hakkai's limp body so the majority of the weight was across his shoulders, Sanzo hooking his left elbow behind Hakkai's knees, right hand sliding up from the wrists to grip the forearms. The pervy Kappa had taught them the shoulder carry that could also double as a wrestling throw. The redhead had called it the "drunk's hump" with those laughing eyes and wide, smart-ass smile. Asshole didn't have a right to know something useful. Sanzo would have to make a point of not telling him.

"Bring any clean blankets, and a lamp," Sanzo barked, not bothering to wait and see if his orders were followed.

Stance shortened by the burden he carried, Sanzo walked to the small shed he had seen on the other side of the shack. He wasn't going to stay in that room with the smoldering corpse any longer than he had to, and there wasn't time to bundle Hakkai up in the wagon and haul ass back to town. He had to be warmed up now. He was already going into shock. Sanzo kicked the door and it splintered apart as much as it opened. The earthy smell of roots and vegetables swirled around the cloud of dust. There was just enough room for two men to lay straight between the rows of barrels and jars lined against the low walls. With a grunt of effort to not dump the unconscious man, Sanzo knelt ungracefully and pulled Hakkai around into his lap to keep him off the cold ground.

Sanzo was about to shout for the boy, when the weak moonlight was blocked by a shadow. The boy stood there, a disreputable stack of blankets slung over one shoulder, holding a lit paper lantern in one hand. The monk indicated with a jerk of his chin to lay the blanket down and the boy obeyed silently, setting the rest down in a pile. Carefully cradling Hakkai's head in the palm of his hand, Sanzo lowered him onto the blanket. He felt the boy's eyes watching him, hovering awkwardly by the door, silence heavy with the unasked question. Sanzo felt the weight of it across the back of his shoulders as surely as he had felt the weight of Hakkai's body.

"My father-" the boy started.

"He's dead," Sanzo stated flatly, not looking up from tucking blankets around Hakkai.

"I know." Sanzo tried not to flinch at the sniffle. "In the morning, Sanzo-sama, will you say the prayers?"

Pale hands paused over the blankets, then returned to their task. He could say no. He should get his healer back into traveling shape, walk back to town, wake up the lazy Monkey and Kappa from their warm, cozy beds, and go back to the mission. He didn't have time for a dead dirt farmer or his orphaned son.

"Yes," Sanzo said sharply. "Now, get out," he added so the boy wouldn't get any ideas he wanted to have an actual conversation.

As soon as the remains of the door were pushed shut, Sanzo gracefully folded his legs into full lotus position and pressed the palms of his hands together. With the practiced ease of a lifetime, the monk's breathing slowed as he slipped into a meditative state, holding the image of Hakkai in his mind even as the violet eyes slowly closed.

* * *


Long after the farmer's wagon had lumbered out of sight down the road, Gojyo had lounged at the bedroom window, bare shoulder leaning against the wall and smoking. With a sigh, he shrugged himself away from the wall and stubbed out the cigarette in the overflowing ashtray. Hakkai had made it sound like they were going to be gone awhile, so there really wasn't any point in watching the road like some stray dog. Absently, Gojyo picked up the sake bottle and shook it, even though he knew it was empty. He idly contemplated finding a bar, then dismissed the idea. Such thoughts were more old habit than motivated by actual desire. The redhead didn't like going out drinking alone anymore. Sifting through the crap on the night stand, Gojyo snagged a pack of playing cards and glanced over at the snoozing Goku.

He grinned to himself. No reason to share a room with a snoring monkey, when there was a perfectly good, currently unoccupied one going to waste. Silent on bare feet, Gojyo padded out of the room into the dark hallway. His youkai eyes quickly adjusted to the darkness and he slipped into Hakkai and Sanzo's room. He automatically paused just past the threshold, but no curses or other objects were thrown at his head. Sanzo was a supernaturally light sleeper. Gojyo swore the pissy monk would wake up from a dead sleep if a flea in the mattress farted.

Gojyo strolled over to the neatly-made bed he knew had to be Hakkai's and dropped himself down onto it hard enough to bounce. Scooting his narrow hips back, he adjusted the pillow between his back and the wall and stretched out his long legs. Leaning over, he turned up the lamp to a soft glow. Sanzo had thoughtfully left half a pack of his cigs next to the ashtray. Grinning, Gojyo tapped out a stick and flipped it up into his mouth. The grin faded a bit when he noticed the lighter on the table was his.

"When did the monk pinch my lighter?" Gojyo wondered. He tossed it back on the table after lighting up and taking a long drag. Not his preferred brand, but twice as sweet for being pilfered.

Pulling the rubber band off the deck, he slipped it onto his wrist and began shuffling the worn cards. These cards were so beat-up, no one would play him with the deck, figuring they were marked, but they were just a favorite set, so he used them for practice. His long fingers coaxed the old, bent cards into bridging. Gojyo also liked the snap and slick feel of a brand new deck fanning crisply in his hands, but there was something to be said for old friends.

"Chirrrup?" A large, white object glided down out of open closet.

"Shit!" Cards flew everywhere and the cigarette dropped from Gojyo's mouth. "Shitshitshit." The redhead quickly snatched the lit stick from his bare stomach and stuck it back between his teeth as he brushed cooling ash off his skin.

Leaning his palms on his thighs, Gojyo leaned forward and glared at the white dragon perched at the foot of the bed. After a moment, the small, round red eyes blinked and Hakuryu turned himself around three times like a damn cat and curled up between Gojyo's feet. Since it was kind of pointless to glare at something that was pretty much ignoring you, Gojyo shook his head and picked up the cards scattered over the bedspread.

"Hakkai did tell me to look after you," Gojyo conceded, rubbing the dragon's side with his foot.

Hakuryu pushed back into the touch just enough to let Gojyo know yes, he was allowing himself to be petted. The redhead smiled. The little dragon wasn't purring and arching in ecstasy like he did when Hakkai handled him, but he also didn't let just anyone mess with him. Hakuryu had actually bitten Goku more than once. As a matter of fact, Gojyo was the only one in the group besides the healer who could basically touch the dragon whenever he wanted.

"I know I'm just a stand-in," Gojyo laughed softly. "But, we can keep each other company until he gets back, okay?"

"Cheep." Red eyes slit open, then closed against a wide, toothy yawn.

Sucking on the cigarette, Gojyo began laying out the cards.

* * *


The first impression impinging upon his awareness was cold. Severe, knifing cold slicing through his insides like a ferocious ice storm howling in his bones. Beyond the clacking of his own teeth and stuttering breath, Hakkai heard the calm, low monotone of chanting. What was wrong with him? It had to be serious for Sanzo to perform a healing chant. Blinking his eyes open, Hakkai forced himself to focus on the white figure sitting next to him on the floor, golden head erect. It was like trying to peer through a frosted pane of glass. He frowned.

"May all dangers be averted and all disease be gone."

Hakkai tried to relax his spasming muscles, imagining the words falling from the monk's moving lips were landing on his face, releasing pockets of peace and warmth. Slowly, his jaw unclenched and his teeth stopped chattering.


"May no obstacle come across your way."

Peace and warmth. Relax, relax... He tried to drink in the words, filling the empty chi channels... The howling in his bones became a muted roar.

"May you enjoy fulfillment and long life."

Unclenching his left fist, Hakkai pushed his hand through the blankets and touched the tips of his fingers to the monk's covered knee. It was the slightest of touches, a brush of butterfly wings, but the violet eyes instantly snapped open and latched onto Hakkai's face with blazing intensity. For a moment, Hakkai lost his breath all over again, and almost started shaking, but this time because of the fierce beauty that was Genjyo Sanzo when he practiced his vocation. For a moment, the last word hung in the air, the power of the chant lifting Sanzo's hair up around his face in a nimbus of spun sunlight, the red chakra visible through the shifting strands. In the dim light from the paper lantern and the broken light sifting through the slats in the door, his alabaster skin and white robes almost glowed. He seemed more divine than mortal.

It was easy to forget, in the day-to-day toils of travel and the sharp tang of blood and gunpowder, that Sanzo was no ordinary man. As Hakkai had witnessed himself in those early days at the temple, this was a revered person, chosen as a child by another Sanzo, and proven over and over again a favored of Son of Heaven.

Prayerful hands lowered, then disappeared into the voluminous sleeves as the Chosen One leaned forward.

"You're a pain in the ass," Sanzo said.

Hakkai's startled laugh turned into a cough that hooked painfully into his chest. His eyes watered. Without realizing it, his left hand clenched in Sanzo's robe as he struggled to regain his breath.

"Damn it, you're going to tear my robe," Sanzo muttered.

Hakkai felt his hand pried open and the fabric pulled free before miraculously, another set of fingers laced through his. Sanzo maneuvered the two of them so Hakkai's head rested in his lap. The effect was startling. Everywhere their bodies were in contact, even through the material, Hakkai could feel the heat radiating off the monk, clean and healthy as summer.

"S-sanzo, s-s-s-so w-warm," Hakkai managed to stutter.

"Yeah, you're still like fucking ice," Sanzo said.

"F-from ch-chi drain?" Hakkai frowned.

When he had first learned how to channel his chi, he had accidentally drained himself to the point of unconsciousness, to be revived by a very irritated Sanzo. Eventually he had learned to listen to his body's warning signs when it was time to cease expending chi and begin reserving again. It had never felt quite like this, however. He wondered if it was because the man he was healing died while they were still connected? No, death should have instantly severed the connection, releasing Hakkai.

"Maybe." Sanzo lifted the edge of the blanket and wriggled his way underneath in the narrow space.

"W-what are you d-doing?" Hakkai's normally sharp mind still felt numb with cold, his thoughts hazy and heavy like a low winter mist.

"Shut up," Sanzo said as he spooned around Hakkai, tucking his head under his chin. "The stuttering is annoying. I'm keeping you warm until morning. If you tell the others, I'll have to kill you."

Hakkai almost laughed again, except his eyes filled with tears of relief. Sanzo's heat wrapped around him like a blanket, until he felt as if he was curled up beside a banked fireplace. The healer had thought only Gojyo could generate this kind of extreme body heat. Perhaps it was only because he was so cold... Without thinking, Hakkai snuggled back into the wonderful warmth, a sigh of pure bliss escaping him. The body behind him tensed a moment, then relaxed and actually pulled him in closer.

As Hakkai's eyes drifted shut, he realized absently that Sanzo was still holding his hand.

* * *


Sanzo knew he shouldn't be so comfortable. After chanting, there was always a peaceful afterglow that made him less inclined to argue or to visit violence upon the idiots around him. However, that in no way could account for the pleasant feel of holding Hakkai in his arms. He moved his chin, nuzzling his face deeper into the clean, soft brown hair. The healer always smelled slightly of soap and herbs. Even though he knew Hakkai and Gojyo used the same shampoo, they smelled completely different. At the thought of the redhead, Sanzo's right arm crooked, instinctively drawing Hakkai in closer. The sleeping man sighed and pushed back into him.

"Ch," Sanzo frowned.

He shouldn't even like this, let alone want it. He had lived a life of such extremes, sometimes he was incapable of predicting his own reaction to people, which was annoying as hell. He went from being by himself to living in a temple crowded with monks, sleeping in a room with other acolytes, then his master. It wasn't until he was alone out in the world again that he realized how much noise sleeping people make: breathing, murmurs, the rustling of clothes, small movements on straw mats. Such sounds somehow made the night smaller. He learned to adjust to the long nights. Even when he returned to the temple, he always slept alone, needing the space of the empty room so he wouldn't get used to the sounds; so he wouldn't need them again to sleep.

During this journey, somehow the sounds had invaded him again. On the rare occasions when he could demand a room to himself, they still seeped through the walls; laughter, snoring, whispers, movements. The living presence of these three creatures permeated every moment of his life to the point that Sanzo thought he couldn't bear it.

What would happen to him if it were suddenly silent again?

"Cold," Hakkai murmured.

The healer released his hand and turned around in his arms, pushing his face into the crook of Sanzo's neck through the gap in the front of the robe. Hakkai's trapped breath quickly created a warm spot, making Sanzo's skin goosebump above the high neck of his black shirt. Somehow, in the reshuffling of positions and blankets, Hakkai's clever fingers had managed to untie Sanzo's sash and practically crawl into his robe with him. Sanzo clamped his legs tight on the knee that was pushing between his thighs and grasped Hakkai's forearms even as they tried to wind around his waist.

"What the fuck?" Sanzo demanded.

Instead of answering, Hakkai licked the skin under Sanzo's jaw and started sucking as cold hands found skin between the black shirt and the waistband of the monk's jeans. Now Sanzo was the one having trouble catching his breath, heart pounding so hard he was sure the healer could hear it, could feel it through his mouth and hands. Failing to pull Hakkai back by his arms, Sanzo grabbed a fistful of hair and jerked the healer's head back sharply.

"What the hell are you doing?" Sanzo growled.

"Generating heat through friction," Hakkai said, calmly meeting Sanzo's glare.

Before Sanzo could reply, he found himself on his back, Hakkai firmly nestled between his legs. He always forgot how strong the mild-mannered youkai was. Trying to ignore the pressure Hakkai's thigh was exerting on his erection, Sanzo quickly brushed back the brown hair and checked that the three limiters were in place on the healer's ear. There was also no tell-tale sign of vine tattoo. All of his senses were telling Sanzo that this man on top of him was Hakkai. That didn't mean something wasn't fucked.

"Need more heat," Hakkai murmured against his throat, sucking his earlobe.

Sanzo had to resist the urge to tilt his head and offer up his neck to the touch. It had been so fucking long... Reaching up, Sanzo grabbed the sides of Hakkai's head and lifted him up enough to meet his eyes. The pupil in the left eye was dilated so wide the green iris was almost lost, while the artificial eye remained unchanged. For a moment, the monk could only see the small, distorted reflection of himself in the glass, then he saw it. A flash, so quick he might of missed it if he blinked. Then Sanzo knew Hakkai wasn't alone in there.

"I'll give you heat," Sanzo said, and flipped them over again.

Holding Hakkai's face firmly between the palms of his hands, Sanzo dipped his head and pressed his lips hard against the healer's. They were cold, but warmed quickly beneath his mouth and parted willingly when Sanzo's tongue stabbed forward. Ignoring the hands pulling at his hips and the body writhing beneath him, Sanzo's right thumb slipped down Hakkai's cheek to push his chin down, opening his mouth wider. Sanzo sucked Hakkai's breath into his body, pressing down hard, crushing their mouths together. When it finally came into him, he was pulling so hard, Sanzo almost swallowed it himself. He managed at the last moment to tear his mouth away from Hakkai's, turn his head and expel it with a violent cough.

"Bastard," Sanzo panted, wiping his mouth with the back of his hand.

That was when the world exploded into lightning and fire.

* * *


"Churrr."

Gojyo lowered the hand of cards he had dealt himself and peered down at the white dragon who had crept up the bed from his feet to lay between his thigh and the wall. The redhead frowned. That wasn't a normal Hakuryu sound.

"You okay, little guy?" Gojyo asked around his cigarette, bending down.

Cautiously (just because he hadn't been bitten yet didn't mean he wouldn't be), Gojyo reached down and with the tips of his fingers gently stroked the soft white mane of fur tufting from the top of the dragon's head. The response was more than Gojyo was expecting. Hakuryu laid his long ears against his skull and pushed his nose up, half-wrapping his sinuous neck around Gojyo's tanned wrist. Through the contact, he could feel the low thrumming of the dragon's odd heartbeat, and a vibration that barely reached his Hanyou ears as purring.

"Like that, huh?" Gojyo smiled.

Setting down the cards, he used his other hand to stroke the soft fur down the length of Hakuryu's lithe body, all the way to the tail. As his hand moved, the dragon arched up into the touch, a rolling wave of vertebrae. Gojyo was pleasantly surprised. The little dragon was usually only this responsive to Hakkai. Sometimes watching the two of them constantly snuggling made him feel a little put out, and he would deliberately sling an arm around the brunette's shoulders just to keep the flying rat away for five minutes. Petting Hakuryu like this made him feel kind of... privileged.

The dragon crawled onto Gojyo's stomach, tail wrapping firmly around his thigh, wings slightly spread for balance. The long neck stretched out flat on his chest until the angular head was nuzzling Gojyo's neck. The redhead kept up the long, light strokes, enjoying the feel of the low, purring vibration and cool, soft scales flexing against his warm belly and chest. Something soft flicked the sensitive skin below his jaw and Gojyo jerked reflexively.

"You licking me?" Gojyo laughed. "Not that I'm against a little lovin', but you're sorta the wrong, what is it, species, you know?"

Stubbing out his cigarette in the ashtray, Gojyo flattened his hands against Hakuryu's torso and tried to lift the dragon off him. Hakuryu growled, and two sets of claws dug into his abdomen, pricking the bare skin above the waistline of his sweatpants. The strong tail pulled up hard against the redhead's groin, binding his balls up against his dick. Gojyo froze.

"Aw, crap," Gojyo muttered.

Another flick, a hard bump of the angled head to tilt Gojyo's chin up, and he felt a sharp pinch on his neck. The redhead fought the instinct to pull his head away and jerk the dragon off of him. After the first bad bite Goku had received, Hakkai had given them a little lecture on dragon physiology. The canines were longer than the other teeth and curved. Once Hakuryu had chomped down onto something, the only way to get him to let go was to press up into the bite, otherwise whatever it was (like Goku's hand), would be ripped instead of just perforated. And, Hakkai had said something about the dragon's jaws having so many pounds of pressure per inch, which Gojyo didn't really understand. He had seen Hakuryu hunting when they were camping out, though, and knew the dragon could snap a squirrel's neck in half a second. Gojyo figured ripping out a human jugular wouldn't really be much of a challenge.

The pinch tightened, and Gojyo winced at the sharp pain that shot down his neck. If there was one thing Gojyo knew, it was body language. The redhead forced his body to relax; he knew tension could be transmitted easily, and he didn't want to upset the little dragon any more than he already was. Slowly, he began stroking Hakuryu again, and was rewarded by the bite on his neck easing up a bit. The relief was short-lived, because the dragon's triple-toed claws dug in for a solid grip, pricking tiny beads of blood to the surface. Hakuryu spread his wings wide, and began undulating up and down the length of his body against Gojyo.

"You gotta be shitting me," Gojyo groaned.

He definitely knew body language. He was being humped by a dragon.

* * *


Hakkai threw a palm out, and a chi shield arched over him and Sanzo as a cloud of lightning whirled around the tiny shed before balling up and bursting through the door. Allowing the chi to dissipate, the healer slowly sat up and stared at the smoldering remains of wood hanging off the hinges. Around the two men, shelves were broken, barrels overturned, and the air was filled with the overwhelming odor of burnt ozone.

"Fucking fire oni," Sanzo muttered.

The monk had also sat up, and now poked a finger through a burn hole in the sleeve of his robe. Hakkai glanced down. The blankets looked as if a bucket of hot cinders had been dumped on them; they were covered with scorch marks. In the increased illumination from the open doorway, Hakkai could clearly see Sanzo's face, and noticed that his bottom lip was burned.

"Sanzo," the healer said softly.

The blonde faced him, and Hakkai automatically lifted a cupped hand out to the other man, then hesitated. A moment ago, he had literally been crawling all over Sanzo, his libido completely out of control. A hot flush crept up Hakkai's neck into his face. Even if he had been... influenced... by an oni, his behavior was still embarrassing to say the least. Violet eyes watched him, then a pale eyebrow rose.

"You're burned," Hakkai explained.

The eyebrow quirked higher when Hakkai's hand hovered between them.

"Ch," Sanzo snorted. "Get on with it, then."

Given permission, Hakkai's hand completed its path and cupped Sanzo's jaw. The amount of chi required for such a minor wound was negligible, and the flash of light barely registered before the burn was healed. The hand lowered along with Hakkai's gaze, and he took a deep, steadying breath as he searched for the appropriate words. They were a small, intimate group, and issues had to be addressed immediately. As a healer, Hakkai knew the dangers of allowing something to fester. He and Sanzo would need to discuss what had happened.

The sound of rustling cloth made Hakkai lift his eyes from the tightly clasped hands in his lap. Sanzo was shaking out the blankets and laying down. Automatically, Hakkai grasped the corners and helped straighten the makeshift bed, finding himself laying down beside the monk again before he quite realized it. There wasn't enough room in the chaos for both of them to lay shoulder-to-shoulder, so Hakkai lay on his side facing Sanzo while the monk lay on his back.

"Sanzo," Hakkai said softly.

"Go to sleep."

"I think-" Hakkai began again.

"Don't be annoying," Sanzo interrupted. "I have to chant in the morning, then we have to get back to the two idiots."

Swallowing a sigh, Hakkai studied Sanzo's profile. He knew, as unhealthy as it was, Sanzo's firm belief in Not Discussing Anything. Hakkai himself was highly selective about what topics he chose to discourse on, preferring to redirect conversations to issues concerning the other members of the group.

"Quit staring," Sanzo said suddenly without opening his eyes.

"I wasn't," Hakkai protested, even though, of course, he had been.
Sanzo's hair glinted in the moonlight as he turned toward Hakkai, purple eyes almost black, cheekbones cut in sharp relief.

"Unless you want to finish what you started," Sanzo challenged.

Hakkai's heart jumped up into his throat, choking any sound that might come out. Sanzo's shadowed stare was as indecipherable as his flat tone. Was the monk testing him, or just trying to silence him so he could get some sleep? Suddenly, Hakkai remembered when his legs were tangled with Sanzo's, his knee pressing up between jean-clad thighs, the hardness he had felt there. The flush returned to the healer's face, burning to his ears and emphasizing the cold pinch of the individual limiters on the left auricle. Although his inhibitions had been overridden by the oni's driving instinct to seek out and absorb heat, Sanzo had been aroused by... Hakkai.

The healer floundered, struggling to find a solid piece of calm in the sudden turmoil he found himself plunged into. If this had happened with Gojyo, it wouldn't have been a surprise; the redhead was an inherently sensual and sexual creature whose body had very strong reactions. But, this was Sanzo. Hakkai had developed the habit of thinking of him as almost asexual. And now, laying here inches apart, so close beneath the covers that he could feel his body heat, his breath on his face, Hakkai was very much aware that Sanzo was a man.

* * *


Why the fuck had he said that? Pissed at himself, Sanzo glared at Hakkai and refused to look away or back down. Whatever the reason, the words were said and there was no taking them back now. Not that he'd ever take anything back. He couldn't afford the luxury of appearing weak. Sanzo watched as the usually unflappable healer dealt with the awkwardness of the situation, obviously embarrassed and startlingly unsure. It was the vulnerable look in the brown eyes that made Sanzo's chest tight.

Before he could think about it, Sanzo reached out and grabbed a fistful of Hakkai's tunic. Jerking him close, he pushed his left arm under the healer's neck, tucking his head under his chin. The monk flared out the blanket and shifted his grip to push his palm against the flat of Hakkai's back. At first, the muscles beneath his hand jumped with tension, then he felt the other man relax into him.

"We're just going to sleep," Sanzo said roughly.

Hair tickled his cheek as Hakkai nodded his head. A tentative hand slid around his waist, and Sanzo felt an unexpected flood of warmth at the touch.

"Of course," Hakkai agreed quietly.

Closing his eyes, Sanzo listened to the changing sounds of Hakkai falling asleep. They were as familiar to him as his own; the pattern of breathing, the extra deep breath at the end of every other inhale that was almost a sigh. However, it was completely different observing those sounds from across the room and experiencing them up close.

For one, he could feel Hakkai's heartbeat.

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Chapter 2: Part 2: Pericardium (Heart Protector)

Author's Notes: There's a glossary at the end for those of you who are dorky like me...Zang-Fu theory is a concept within traditional Chinese medicine that describes the functions of the organs of the body and the interactions that occur between them. The organs are associated energetically with the five elements of wood, fire, earth, water and metal. The Pericardium (Heart Protector) defends the Heart from dangerous external influences and is associated with Fire.


Author: Lotus Pairing(s): Sanzo/Hakkai Rating: NC-17 Warning: Language, Sexual Situations Summary: Hakkai is possessed by a fire oni, leading to sexual tension with Sanzo & Gojyo contemplates the dragon humping incident.


Gojyo had loudly praised the gods when the group had arrived in the town the day before and discovered its proximity to a hot spring meant an onsen ryokan, an inn with a public bath. It was wholly unexpected, especially after driving past so many impoverished-looking farms. He was sure they'd end up in some shit hole, or camping out again. As he shimmied out of his narrow jeans in the deserted datsuijyo, changing room, the redhead was almost grateful enough to burn a stick of incense for the local water deity. Naked, he kicked the crumpled pile of denim closer to the wall and dropped the big folded bath towel onto the bench.


Carrying the small towel and the ikkou's communal bath bag into the equally empty araiba, Gojyo sat on the stool next to the only full bucket in the washing area. It was the knife's edge of dawn, and he'd been lucky enough to catch the innkeeper's daughter in the kitchen starting the day. A little of the old Gojyo charm, and he had the blushing girl heating water and lighting lanterns for him. If he'd put in even a bit of effort, he could of had the cute little thing scrubbing his back, too, but he wasn't in the mood for a sudsy slap and tickle.


Taking a breath, Gojyo grabbed the edges of the bucket and dumped half of the warm water over his head. With a gasp, the redhead shook himself, then dropped the washcloth into the bucket and bent over to retrieve the bar of rice bran soap from the bag. Soaping up the washcloth, he began vigorously scrubbing his chest and stomach.


Gojyo's leanly muscular torso had been spattered, smeared and soiled by various types of body fluids on the battlefield and in the bedroom, but this was the first time in his life he'd washed off dragon spunk. "Fuck," Gojyo muttered.


When he left Hakkai and Sanzo's room, Hakuryu had been curled up in a sleeping ball on the foot of the bed. Gojyo had done some kinky shit, but bestiality hadn't been on the list. He had no freaking clue what had gotten into the little guy. Gojyo unstoppered the bottle of shampoo and poured a generous amount of the dark yellow liquid into the palm of his hand. As he worked the shampoo through his shoulder-length hair, the sweet smell of the camellia oil started soothing his frazzled nerves.


Hakkai used camellia oil in the medicinal creams he made for sunburns, scrapes, rashes, bug bites and other various annoyances the ikkou managed to collect on the road. The scent clung to the healer; particularly his hands, the herbal aroma wafting around the glowing tendrils of chi when he healed...


Gojyo felt his penis stir between his spread legs and frowned. Since when did thinking about his best friend give him a dick twitch? Closing his eyes and holding his breath, he dumped the rest of the bucket water over his head. Slicking his hair back with his left hand, he snagged the washcloth with the other as he stood up.


"What're ya thinkin', pal?" Gojyo asked his penis, now suitably limp after the dousing of cooled water.


Nipples hardened and tanned skin goosebumped from the slight breeze generated by his long-legged stride across the room. Gojyo pushed aside the blue and white noren with his forearm, his unusual height forcing him to duck anyway as he stepped into the yokujyo, the bathing room proper. Warm, humid air smelling like damp cedar mixed with burnt matches and salt, wrapped around his nakedness as he glanced around the room illuminated by the soft glow of the single paper lantern. Three rectangular, wooden tubs set into slight recesses in the wooden floor framed with black rocks lined the wall. Gojyo padded over to the closest one, dark water shimmering in the lamplight.


Gojyo eased his right foot into the steaming water. A smile lifted his face even as his toes curled involuntarily. The bath water was only a couple of degrees shy of a crab boil. Just the way he liked it. The redhead slowly eased himself in, an occasional pleased hiss escaping from him as his body adjusted. Scooting his ass down, Gojyo raised his knees up out of the water to drop his shoulders in. As usual, the tub wasn't long enough to accommodate his six foot frame.


"Ow!" Gojyo flinched when he sunk in up to his chin and a sharp sting pricked his neck. Sitting up, long fingers probed the sore spot. The redheaded lothario had borne his share of passion marks, but none of them had smarted as much as a dragon love bite.
"Fuckin' flying rat," Gojyo grumbled.


He dunked the washcloth, wrung it out, and laid it on top of his head to keep the chill away from his wet hair. His pleasure at the sensual experience of the hot bath dimmed. The whole incident with Hakuryu was pretty embarrassing, and the free-spirited Kappa did not embarrass easily. There was no way in Hell he was going to be able to hide the bite. He could lie to the monkey, the monk wouldn't give a crap even if he deigned to notice, but Hakkai would know what it was the second he saw it. Then Gojyo would be forced to tell him what happened.


Cupping water in his palms, Gojyo absently poured the hot liquid over his exposed knees. Well, maybe he didn't have to tell Hakkai all the specifics.


"I was just pettin' the little guy," Gojyo spoke slowly, testing out the lie, "and I must've gotten too rough."


Gojyo pictured Hakkai's frown, the glint of glasses as the head dropped to show disappointed brown eyes in an impassive face. That's right. Gojyo was supposed to be looking after the dragon. Plus, the hanyou had never "accidentally" hurt anyone. Which Hakkai knew. Because Hakkai knew everything about him. Gojyo splashed water with the flat of his hand.


"Shit." There was no way he could lie to Hakkai. He was gonna have to tell him the truth.
Gojyo closed his eyes and desperately wished for the pack of cigarettes left in the room.

* * *

One heartbeat Sanzo was asleep and the next he was fully awake. It was always that way with him. He never understood lazing about in bed. A lifetime in the temple waking at dawn for morning prayers and traveling on the road had trained his body to be so. Without opening his eyes, Sanzo's senses assembled his surroundings almost instantly; the quickening dawn rising up through the broken door and pinking the inside of his eyelids, the smell of camellia oil brushing softly under his chin, the steady heartbeat under his hand.


Sometime during the turbulent night, Hakkai had shifted so his back was pressed against Sanzo's chest. The front of Hakkai's tunic and Sanzo's robe had come undone during the wrestling last night, so the blonde's hand rested on the healer's long-sleeved black undershirt made of karami ori, sha silk, as was his own. Sanzo's thumb lightly stroked the soft material. As an young acolyte, Sanzo had sat and watched a master weave the karami ori. The old monk had explained as his gnarled but nimble fingers moved, thin body bent nearly double to bring his watery eyes close enough to the loom to see his work.


"The secret of karami ori," the weaver had explained in a voice as light as the shifting silk, "is the twisting of the warp threads in pairs. The weft thread is inserted between the twists, forming an open weave both strong and beautiful..."


It was the image of the two black threads twisting together that had come to mind when Sanzo worked with Hakkai on controlling his chi, carefully wrapping chants around the newly-turned youkai's wild energy, guiding, coaxing. In the garden outside Sanzo's quarters, the pair would sit in lotus position facing each other so closely their knees would brush when one shifted. Once the image of the twisting threads had come to him, Sanzo had ordered a karami ori shirt for the healer. The protest had been instantaneous and loud.
"But, Sanzo-sama, the karami ori is only for the most pure and holiest..."


"... for the most sacred ceremonies..."


"... appearances in the royal court..."


"Urusai!" Sanzo barked.


The snap of his robes was loud in the shocked silence as Sanzo spun around and stalked off. The next morning, carefully wrapped in rice paper, a black, long-sleeved karami ori shirt was left outside his door. Having won that battle easily, Sanzo was again irritated when the healer attempted to decline the shirt.


"Che. Suit yourself." Refusing to argue with his grown student, Sanzo narrowed his eyes and tossed the shirt in the air.


Hakkai deftly caught the silk before it fluttered to the ground. Green eyes met purple. In a sudden capitulation, the healer calmly folded the shirt against his chest and bowed deeply before turning and leaving the garden. The shirt and power limiters were the only objects Hakkai took away with him when he finished training and departed the monastery.


Sanzo shifted between the worn blankets on the hard dirt floor so his cheek brushed Hakkai's ear, the cold metal of the limiters bright and sharp. The three ear cuffs were charged and placed on Hakkai's ear by Sanzo's own hands. This close, the monk could detect the slight buzz of power, feel the echo of his own chi signature. He recalled with perfect clarity Hakkai's expression when he slipped the cuffs on; a devastating mixture of fear and trust, hope and despair. The tender flesh had been cold, and to this day Sanzo was unsure if it was Hakkai or his own fingers that had been shaking.
Frowning, Sanzo flattened his hand against Hakkai’s chest. He should have been able to easily feel the other man’s body heat through the loose weave. Hakkai’s skin was still colder than it should have been.


The monk channeled a small amount of chi into the morning chant, Atta Dipa, to banish the lingering effects of the fire oni. It wasn’t a true healing like Hakkai performed. Sanzo never spent much time practicing the healing arts despite various attempts by older monks to persuade him to do so. He had focused his time and energy on what would best serve his purpose. Battle Chants: attack, deflect, cast out, barrier break. Healing required a tedious subtlety, a compassion to forge the connection with the afflicted.


Sanzo was neither subtle nor compassionate. He was not Hakkai.


"You are the light itself

Rely on yourself
Do not rely on others.

The Dharma is the light

Do not rely on anything other than the Dharma."


Hakkai awoke on the first "light"; Sanzo could feel the quickening of the heart beneath his palm, the change of rhythm in his breathing. Other than those two subtle signs, Hakkai kept still until the chant was finished.

Sanzo wondered what the healer was thinking. In that regard, the two men were complete opposites. Sanzo said exactly what he thought, did what he wanted, and took the straightest path to his goal. He was like a bullet shot: abrupt, direct, and sometimes fatal.
Hakkai was enigmatic. Every word, every silence, had multiple meanings that had to be interpreted like haiku.
“Thank you, Sanzo,” Hakkai said quietly.


“Che,” Sanzo snorted softly. “I need you healthy.”


Time seemed to slow as purple eyes widened in surprise. For a moment, Sanzo watched the dust motes swirl in the beams of light slanting over their heads in the otherwise dark shed. When Sanzo had said ‘I need you’, Hakkai’s heart thumped hard beneath his palm, and the healer’s breath had caught slightly before evening out. Such a tiny event, it was barely detectable. But, Sanzo had once spent an entire day with his master counting the shades of pink in a cluster of cherry blossoms. A lesson in observation.


The cherry blossoms had opened the door to a world of vibrant beauty so painfully intense, Sanzo had to walk through the garden with squinted eyes for weeks.
The catch in Hakkai’s breath opened an entirely different kind of door. The rhythm of the healer’s breathing became more forced, and Sanzo saw the pulse jump in the slender neck above the black shirt. Hakkai knew he had noticed.


Sanzo remembered the feel of Hakkai’s lean frame pressed intimately against him; the taste of his mouth. The blond felt his morning erection harden. He wondered what a cigarette would taste like after Hakkai.
In the span of time it took one of the dust motes to spiral through the light, the decision had been made.
Sanzo had always taken the most direct path.

* * *

Hakkai woke to soft chanting in his ear, making the limiters buzz slightly. Green eyes snapped open, and there was an instant of blurred disorientation from the false one, before the dim interior of the farmer’s shack came into focus. He had a moment to register how hot Sanzo’s palm felt on his chest, even through his shirt, then the monk’s chi manifested in the chant.


It felt as if an invisible fist gathered up icy cobwebs laying over Hakkai’s skin and abruptly jerked them away. With a conscious effort, Hakkai kept himself from flinching. Sanzo’s chi was not gentle.


The hand on his chest cooled. Or, to be more precise, Hakkai’s body temperature rose to normal, so the difference between them became negligible. Skin. Flesh. The same tongue currently engaged in chant, thrusting into his mouth and sucking so hard the healer thought he was going to draw out his soul. Hakkai cleared his throat.


“Thank you, Sanzo,” Hakkai said.


“Che.” A soft snort stirred the hair on the back of Hakkai’s neck.


“I need you healthy,” Sanzo said in his ear.


The sound of the monk’s voice, so intimately pitched, sent a jolt through Hakkai’s system. He quickly got the breathing under control, hoping Sanzo hadn’t noticed. There was nothing he could do about the hardness between his legs, but fortunately, he was facing away from the other man. A slight intake of breath behind him, too small to even be a gasp, and Hakkai knew Sanzo had noticed. The healer closed his eyes. Albeit during a possession, Hakkai had still attempted to initiate physical intimacy last night. That incident, taken with his involuntary reaction just now, could be misconstrued by the monk as sexual interest. Hakkai was mortified.


“Sanzo,” Hakkai began, then stopped abruptly when the pale hand on his black silk shirt slid down to his waist.


“What are you doing?” Hakkai asked in his best no-nonsense tone, spoiled by the raised pitch at the end.


“Verifying,” Sanzo responded.


Fingertips slid over the rough fabric of his trousers, firmly outlining the shape of his erection. To Hakkai’s acute embarrassment, his member grew under the touch. Sanzo removed his hand, and Hakkai relaxed fractionally in relief, until the monk started undoing the fastenings.


“Sanz-oh!”


Hakkai startled at the cold touch of the arm glove ring on Sanzo’s middle finger. The ring slid down along the side of his penis, an odd contrast to the warm, silken glove. All the blood seemed to drain out of his brain into his groin, making the healer feel slow-witted.


“Wait,” Hakkai breathed. He grabbed Sanzo’s wrist, which the monk ignored. “I believe you may have misunderstood. Ah!”


His hips bucked forward involuntarily when Sanzo grasped his erection and squeezed firmly. At the same time, Sanzo scooted closer, pressing their bodies together tightly. Even through the double layer of their trousers, Hakkai could feel Sanzo’s erection pressing against the small of his back.


“I-it’s merely a physical response to...”


“Be quiet.” Sanzo’s left arm shifted under Hakkai’s neck and two slender fingers were thrust into his mouth.
Green eyes widened in surprise and Hakkai froze. With his youkai strength, he could easily break free of Sanzo’s demanding hands. In the entire ikkou, the human monk was the most physically frail. It was that very vulnerability that kept Hakkai at his back during battles, watching out for him, throwing out chi shields.
Yes, Hakkai could free himself of this entanglement in an instant.


The youkai became aware that Sanzo’s right hand had stopped moving, as if the blond man were waiting for something. Hakkai tasted the fingers in his mouth with the tip of his tongue. Salt and smoke. His mouth watered. Closing his eyes, Hakkai pressed the flat of his tongue against the digits and began sucking on them.
His hand let go of Sanzo’s wrist and dropped to the ground almost of its own accord. Sanzo’s right hand started moving up and down, faster on the upstroke and harder than Hakkai himself did when he masturbated. The monk’s hips pushed forward, grinding his erection into Hakkai and forcing the healer’s hips forward as well.
The only sounds in the shed were the soft slapping of flesh and the harsh breathing of the two men.


Caught between Sanzo’s grinding hips and relentless hand, it didn’t take long for the tingling to start at the base of his penis. Hakkai tried to be efficient when taking matters into his own hand, so to speak, but this was quick even for him. However, it had been a while since he’d been touched by another intimately. Almost a year; on Gojyo’s birthday. The mischievous redhead had insisted no best friend would force a guy to visit a brothel alone on his own birthday.


The thought of Gojyo caused an unexpected pang of guilt. With Gojyo’s warm smile in his mind, and Sanzo’s hot breath on his neck, Hakkai’s balls tightened, and he orgasmed. He gasped at the release, hips locked forward.


Sanzo removed the fingers from his mouth, stretching his arm across Hakkai’s chest to grip his shoulder like a vise. The blonde’s grinding became harder, hip thrusts sharper. His hand continued to pump as semen spurted out across the coarse blanket and dirt floor.


Hakkai twitched when Sanzo’s hold on his sensitized member didn’t let up. The sharp hip thrusts became irregular, and Sanzo pushed up tight against him.
“Nngh,” Sanzo groaned, pressing his face into Hakkai’s neck.


Strong, slender fingers unwound from Hakkai’s softening member and slid up to rest on his hip. The left hand gripping his shoulder released him and fell to the floor along Hakkai’s own outstretched arm.


For a moment, the two men lay still until their breathing slowed and quieted. Then, Sanzo slid his arm out from underneath Hakkai’s neck and the hand on his hip vanished. The healer felt the monk roll away from him and cool air rushed in to fill the empty space.


Hakkai sat up on his knees, keeping his back to the monk. Using the blanket, he cleaned up and tucked himself back in, straightening his clothes. Behind him, he heard rustling fabric and assumed Sanzo was doing likewise. When the rustling stopped, Hakkai turned around and began gathering the blankets, carefully folding the wet spots inside.


Sanzo was sitting with one knee raised and the other bent under his now closed robe. The growing light filtering through the broken door fell across him, turning his hair gold and his skin almost translucent. Hakkai was reminded of the pictures of saints in the illustrated books the nuns let him read at the orphanage. One of the books had been so precious it was kept on a stand and he had to wear gloves to touch it.


“You wouldn’t want to dirty something so beautiful, would you, Gonou?” the nun had asked.


Hakkai looked down at his hands and a small, mocking smile twisted his lips. Feeling eyes on him, the healer looked up into an impossible purple. A pale eyebrow rose in question. Hakkai shrugged.


“I wonder if there is a special place in Hell for seducing monks,” Hakkai’s smile almost hurt, and the joke fell flat.


Sanzo fished inside a sleeve and drew out a pack of cigarettes and a lighter. He tapped out a stick and stuck it in his mouth.


“I don’t believe in Hell,” Sanzo said around the cigarette.


Purple eyes lowered as he lit the cigarette and rose again when the pack and lighter disappeared back inside the sleeve.


“And I can’t be seduced,” Sanzo added.


The monk swiped his thumb across his tongue and took a deep drag on the cigarette. Hakkai frowned. It must have been a trick of the light filtering through the swirling smoke, but for a moment, it looked like Sanzo had smiled.

 


GLOSSARY
onsen ryokan: onsen = hot spring and ryokan = Japanese inn.
datsuijyo: changing room.
ikkou: troupe, party
araiba: washing area.
noren: short curtain hung in doorways, often at shop entrances.
yokujyo: bathing room
karami ori: aka Sha Silk is a member of the elegant Silk gossamers of the gauze family.
Atta Dipa: Buddhist morning chant. Atta Dipa is chanted with the voice starting low at the beginning of each line and rising for the last two syllables.

 

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Chapter 3: Part 3: San Jiao (Triple Burner)

Author's Notes: Summary: Sanzo and Hakkai are called away in the middle of the night to help a severely injured farmer and Gojyo is left babysitting a dragon.
Warning: Language, Sexual Situations
Notes: Zang-Fu theory is a concept within traditional Chinese medicine that describes the functions of the organs of the body and the interactions that occur between them. The organs are associated energetically with the five elements of wood, fire, earth, water and metal. The San Jiao (Triple Burner) is a yang organ paired with the yin organ, the Pericardium. The San Jiao is said to be a metabolism mechanism that creates energy for accomplishing a task and is associated with Fire.


Author: Lotus Pairing(s): Sanzo/Hakkai Rating: R
The dim hallway had the muffled stillness that meant most of the inn’s occupants were still asleep. Gojyo rubbed his wet hair with the towel as he walked barefoot and shirtless toward the ikkou’s rooms. He’d check to see if Hakkai and Sanzo were back yet. If not, he’d enjoy another one of the monk’s cigs, sneak a clean shirt out of his room, then see if the daughter was still in the kitchen.
A little healthy flirting would be the perfect distraction. Not that he intended on taking her to bed, but it always gave him a boost to see a little blush or smile and know he put it there. It felt good to be wanted.
Gojyo paused outside Hakkai and Sanzo’s room, fingertips resting on the latch. No voices or sounds from inside. He felt a small pang of relief and disappointment. He was relieved he didn’t have to have the horny dragon chat with his best friend, but he also missed him.
It had been a long friggin’ night. He felt twitchy, almost like right before a demon ambush or something. He turned the latch and opened the door.
Not even the hanyou’s cat-like reflexes were fast enough to dodge the big, soft white trajectile that hit him smack in the face. He automatically caught the pillow before it fell to the floor.
“Where’s Sanzo?” Goku demanded.
Gojyo slung the pillow back at the young man sitting cross-legged on the monk’s unmade bed. His hair was uncombed and he was still wearing the over-sized sleeping shorts and t-shirt that always made him look about twelve years old.
“Brat,” Gojyo retorted. He padded over to the night stand for a cigarette.
“Where’s Sanzo?” Goku repeated.
“Hakkai and the monk went to go help an injured farmer,” Gojyo muttered. He flipped a stick up into his mouth and thumbed the lighter.
“Why didn’t he take me?” Goku frowned. His tone was part hurt whine, part suspicion of all information relayed via Kappa.
“‘Cause you’re a pain in the ass - ow!” Gojyo almost set his nose on fire when the pillow knocked against the arm holding the lighter.
“Dumbass monkey,” Gojyo grumbled.
“You’re the dumbass,” Goku countered, bouncing off the bed. “They didn’t take you either, did they?”
The redhead blew out a long stream of smoke. Yeah, that had bothered him, too, but he wasn’t gonna whine about it.
“Hakkai wanted me to look after...” Gojyo paused and glanced around the room. “Where’s Hakuryu?”
“Went out.” Goku flapped a hand at the open window. “Hey, I’m hungry.”
“So what else is new?” Gojyo leaned against the window frame, eyes automatically following the road the wagon had taken last night. If Hakkai wasn’t back by the time they’d finished breakfast, he was going after him.
“Gooojyo.”
Crimson eyes flicked over and down to meet ridiculously large golden eyes raised in a kicked puppy stare. Goku was twisting the front of his sleeping shirt, one bare foot rubbing the top of the other.
“C’mon, I’m starving,” Goku insisted.
Gojyo took a deep drag to keep from grinning. He looked totally pitiful. The kid could probably pull as many chicks as him with that routine. Almost. Gojyo whipped the towel off his head and tossed it in the general direction of the room’s single chair.
“Go get dressed, monkey, bring me a shirt, and we’ll-”
“Holy shit!” Goku rose up on his toes and leaned in close enough for Gojyo to experience his morning breath. “What’s that thing on your neck?”
A square-tipped finger reached out to touch, and Gojyo batted it away.
“Nuttin’.” The hanyou shook his head so some of the damp hair fell forward over his bare shoulders.
“Like Hell it’s nothing!” Undeterred, Goku pulled back the hair and stared. “Is that some kinda... hickey?”
Unable to resist, Gojyo slouched against the wall and jutted his slim hips forward, eyes half-closed.
“Some of us have better uses for beds than just sleeping,” Gojyo purred around the cigarette.
“Ew. You’re such a pervert!“ Goku’s nose wrinkled, and he turned away.
When the disgusted monkey stomped out of the room, Gojyo found his gaze drifting back to the road.

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Chapter 4: Chapter 4: Jinzou Root of Life

Author's Notes: Author: Lotus
Pairing(s): Sanzo/Hakkai/Gojyo
Rating: R
Summary: P1 - Sanzo and Hakkai are called away in the middle of the night to help a severely injured farmer and Gojyo is left babysitting a dragon. P2 - Hakkai is possessed by a fire oni, & the oni’s attempt to draw heat results in a sexual situation. P3 - Upon Hakkai & Sanzo’s return to the inn, Gojyo & Goku realized what happened & Gojyo attacks Sanzo. P4 - Hakkai attempts to be peacemaker.
Warning: Language, Sexual Situations
Notes: Jinzou (The Kidney) is home of the Zhi (Willpower). The Jinzou store Essence, govern birth, growth, reproduction & development. They also produce the Marrow which fills the brain & controls the bones. The Jinzou are often referred to as the Root of Life.


Hakkai had made a mistake.
Such an occurrence was rare, and he usually caught and fixed his own errors so they passed unnoticed by others. However, on the rare occasions when a miscalculation or oversight slipped past him into the world, the consequences tended to be immediate and rather violent. Bloodshed was usually involved.
Hakkai was witnessing such a consequence play out in front of his eyes right at this moment.
He should have sent Sanzo through the breezeway straight to the baths, then come in himself to retrieve the toiletries. Yes, he would have Sanzo’s scent on him, but that would be expected from camping out. It would not have been unusual. However, Sanzo didn’t just have the “close contact” smell; he smelled like sex.
During the entire cart ride back, Hakkai could scent his own seed on the monk. Every time those slender fingers lifted the cigarette, the musky odor wafted toward the healer. He could also detect the blonde man’s arousal, but Hakkai politely ignored it. And when his body refused to follow his mind’s example, he bent his legs and casually held his knees to hide the erection.
With the limiters on, Hakkai’s youkai senses were about on par with Gojyo’s. Goku’s senses were those of a full-blooded youkai, and the saru’s sense of smell notoriously acute. Allowing Sanzo to walk into the inn had been a grievous error. Now, it was time for damage control.
Hakkai glanced around the inn. Mercifully, it was almost empty. One guest, a traveling merchant from the look of him, was staring at the scene, chopsticks halfway to his mouth. Even as he watched, a piece of egg plopped back down into his bowl. The merchant became aware of Hakkai’s stare, and his wide eyes shifted in his direction. Hakkai smiled and bowed slightly without breaking eye contact. The man’s stare faltered, then dropped and he became instantly immersed in his breakfast. The other guest chose to leave discretely via the stairs toward the rooms.
“Goku,” Hakkai said softly.
The young man ignored him. Hakkai squeezed Goku’s shoulder, increasing the pressure until a pair of startled eyes blinked up at him.
“Goku, ask the innkeeper to prepare a private bath for Sanzo, please,” Hakkai said, releasing the shoulder.
“But - Hakkai?” The sheer bewilderment in Goku’s voice and face stung.
“Everything will be fine,” Hakkai said brightly, smiling through his guilt.
He patted Goku’s shoulder and walked toward the destroyed shoji screen. To his immense relief, Hakkai noted immediately that Sanzo hadn’t managed to draw his weapon. He had no idea if his chi shield would stop a bullet fired from a banishing gun.
“Gojyo,” Hakkai said, “Let go of Sanzo, please.”
“I can’t,” Gojyo replied, voice strained.
“Whyever not?” Hakkai kept his tone reasonable.
“‘Cause he’ll shoot me.”
Crimson eyes slid up to meet Hakkai’s, and the healer was relieved to see a lopsided smile from the redhead. Goku’s hurt bewilderment was predictable, as was a certain amount of over-protective behavior from Gojyo. However, Hakkai could count on one hand the number of times he had witnessed his good-natured friend truly lose his temper. Hakkai was still somewhat shocked Gojyo had actually tackled Sanzo to the ground. He squatted down next the redhead.
“You do seem to have the tiger by the tail,” Hakkai observed.
His quiet comment earned him an angry flash of purple before Sanzo returned his glare to Gojyo.
“I am going to fill your worthless, skinny ass with lead,” Sanzo growled.
“Hey, whose ass are you callin’ skinny, you bony monk?” Gojyo’s tone was much closer to its normal warm humor.
Sanzo’s lips twisted open, but before he could spit out a retort, Hakkai interjected.
“Now, now,” Hakkai soothed.
He kneeled forward and grasped Sanzo’s trapped wrist above Gojyo’s white-knuckled grip. Two startled looks were directed at him, which he ignored.
A corner of his mind noted that although Sanzo’s skin was warmer than his own, Gojyo’s felt like he had just been outside in the sun. For a moment, Hakkai was caught by the image of Sanzo’s white fist, his own slightly darker fingers, then the back of Gojyo’s brown hand above his. He suddenly became hyper-aware of all the places their three bodies were touching and felt his heartbeat speed up. He forced himself to take a deep breath and let it out slowly. He had to take control of himself and this situation.
“There. Now you can let go, Gojyo,” Hakkai announced.
The redhead raised an incredulous eyebrow at him. Hakkai held his smile until the eyebrow lowered and Gojyo looked down at the glowering monk with the same expression usually reserved for peering down into a pit of vipers. One tanned finger at a time slowly unwrapped from the slender, pale wrist. The white finger marks quickly turned red, and Hakkai’s healer eye knew Sanzo would be wearing a bracelet of bruises in the morning.
Knowing he was at the edge of the little extra bit of patience the monk afforded him, Hakkai needed to remove Gojyo from the immediate vicinity.
“Gojyo,” Hakkai said pleasantly, keeping his eyes locked with Sanzo’s. “If you could please have them send breakfast to our room, I would appreciate it.”
“Yeah, sure, ‘Kai.” Gojyo rolled back onto the balls of his feet and straightened up with the lithe grace of a stretching cat.
“I’ll get Kana to cook somethin’ and I’ll bring it up myself,” Gojyo’s hand, which had just been imprisoning Sanzo, gently clasped Hakkai’s shoulder. He could feel the heat from the fingers through the layers of tunic and the sha shirt.
“I’ll be waitin’ for you, ‘kay?” The lilt at the end made it sound like Gojyo wasn’t so much making a statement as he was asking for permission.
“That would be perfect, Gojyo.” Hakkai broke the stare with Sanzo long enough to give Gojyo the reassurance he needed. He was rewarded when Gojyo’s hesitant smile blossomed into a grin. Hakkai watched the tall, slender man saunter toward the kitchen, unsurprised Gojyo knew the name of the innkeeper’s daughter.
“You had better keep that idiot out of firing range.”
Hakkai looked down at the man sprawled beneath him. The fist had loosened, and the coiled tension in Sanzo’s body dissipated. Instead of looking like he had been thrown to the ground, the monk made it appear he had just decided to rest there for a moment, perhaps even take a nap. Hakkai smiled.
“I will, Sanzo-sama,” he said, releasing the slim white wrist as he sat back up.
“Hakkai.”
Sanzo captured Hakkai’s retreating hand and followed him up. To an observer, it might appear Hakkai had pulled the other man upright, but the limber monk required no such assistance. Sanzo leaned in so close, Hakkai could feel his breath when he spoke.
“Don’t encourage any ideas about switching rooms,” Sanzo said.
Goku’s hurt eyes and Gojyo’s uncertain smile flashed through Hakkai’s mind.
“Surely, under the circumstances, the rooming arrangements should be reconsidered,” Hakkai objected.
Sanzo bent his left knee and leaned forward, pulling Hakkai’s right arm straight and down between their chests. A slight twist locked Hakkai’s elbow. It was an artfully executed Aikido move that could be extricated from painlessly if Hakkai leaned into it and turned into Sanzo’s arms, pressing his back into the monk’s chest. It would also dislocate his shoulder if he resisted the hold and pulled back violently.
Hakkai chose to remain still.
“It is not up for a vote,” Sanzo said quietly.
Purple eyes locked with his and Sanzo’s left hand vanished into Hakkai’s blind spot when he grasped his right shoulder. Hakkai felt the knowledgeable fingers pause briefly over the pressure point that would numb Hakkai’s arm, before sliding over the collar and up the side of his neck. The tips of two fingers rested on the bundle of nerves behind Hakkai’s jaw that could force his mouth open if pressure was applied, and the pad of Sanzo’s thumb rested on the edge of his bottom lip.
Hakkai lost track of time as the two men sat facing each other. He waited for the anticipated push on the pressure point that never came. With his arm locked between them, right side pressed against Sanzo’s raised knee, his blind side held firmly in the monk’s hand, Hakkai was physically immobilized. And completely free to choose.
Hakkai parted his lips. Sanzo pushed the pad of his thumb inside and without hesitation, Hakkai touched it with the tip of his tongue. Sanzo’s pupils widened, darkening his irises from lavender to almost indigo. The effect was startling, like an artist dipping an ink-laden brush into the center of a bowl of water.
The thumb withdrew and pressed gently on Hakkai’s tingling lips once before Sanzo’s hand fell away from his face.
In the space of a heartbeat, the monk had released Hakkai’s arm and risen gracefully to his feet with a swish of robes. Hakkai heard rustling, the click and snap of a lighter, then a deep inhale and release. The smell of cigarette smoke drifted down.
“I’ll deal with Goku,” Sanzo said, and then he was gone.
* * *
Gojyo leaned against the kitchen’s back doorjamb, alternately blowing cigarette smoke out into the courtyard and watching the blushing Kana make Hakkai’s breakfast. A craptacular night had overflowed into an even shittier morning. Blowing out a stream of smoke, he watched the chickens pecking at the ground. Peck, peck, peck. Cluck, cluck, cluck. Fuck, fuck, fuck.
Closing his eyes, Gojyo banged the back of his head lightly against the wooden beam. He had fucked up. Again. It was like the word had been invented for him. He was either fucking, being fucked over, or fucking up.
Why did hell had he fought with Sanzo? All that did was piss off the monk and disappoint Hakkai. If Sanzo had just strolled in smelling like sex, sure Gojyo would have razzed him, because that would have been just too sweet an opportunity to pass up. But, it’s not like he’d really care one way or another. Hell, if the monk got his rocks off every now and then, maybe he’d be less bitchy and a little easier to get along with. But Sanzo had come in smelling like sex and Hakkai. Hakkai for fuck’s sake!
Something in him had just snapped, and before he knew it, he had Sanzo pinned to the floor. If Hakkai hadn’t played peacemaker, he’d probably be healing a bullet wound right now.
“It’s ready, Gojyo-san,” Kana announced.
Eyes opening, Gojyo looked down at the tray Kana held out. A fresh bowl of rice, miso soup and a pot of tea were arranged neatly in ceramic bowls, with chopsticks tucked in a folded napkin. Pushing off from the doorjamb, Gojyo quickly dropped his cigarette outside and ground it out beneath his boot. Turning, he took the tray from Kana and gave her a genuine smile of gratitude. “Thanks, sweetheart,” Gojyo said, giving her a wink.
She covered her face with small, work-reddened hands, but the almond eyes peeking between the fingertips were smiling. Gojyo sighed as he left the kitchen and headed toward the sleeping rooms. At least he managed to make someone smile today.
Gojyo toed his boots off in the hallway and stood listening for a moment in front of the door to Hakkai and Sanzo’s room. Balancing the tray on one hand, he carefully opened the door, slipped inside and pushed it shut behind him with his foot.
The room didn’t have a table, so Gojyo walked over to the twin beds and settled on the floor between them. After he set the tray down, he immediately pulled his socks off and tossed them toward the chair, where they landed near the towel from earlier. He hated socks, and hadn’t worn them much until Hakkai started buying them for him and pointedly leaving them folded on the foot of his bed every morning.
The door opened and Hakkai slipped in, wearing the black shirt untucked over his slacks and the inn’s guest slippers. As the healer passed the chair, he scooped up the socks and towel and dropped them into the wooden seat without breaking stride.
“Yo,” Gojyo greeted him.
“Hello, Gojyo.” Hakkai smiled. “I was just washing up a bit.”
Elbows propped on the edge of the bed behind him, Gojyo watched Hakkai sit cross-legged across from. The hair around his face was damp, and he wasn’t wearing his glasses. Somehow, without his glasses, Hakkai looked oddly vulnerable.
The silence was punctuated by soft clattering as Hakkai lifted ceramic lids, poured tea, then re-arranged everything on the tray. Twice. It was when the brown-haired man started re-folding the napkin that Gojyo stretched out his long legs and nudged Hakkai in the hip with his toe.
“Hey,” Gojyo said gently.
The elegant fingers stilled, then laced together and rested on top of the napkin in Hakkai’s lap. Green eyes raised to meet his.
“All you gotta do is answer one question for me,” Gojyo took a deep breath. “You don’t have to tell me anything else, okay?”
Hakkai’s head tilted questioningly, eyebrows drawing down into a slight frown.
“Did he force you?” Even the question made Gojyo’s guts churn.
“No!” Hakkai’s eyes widened in shock, and his usual placid expression fell away. “Oh, no. No, Gojyo. It wasn’t like that. There were... extenuating circumstances.”
Gojyo watched the flush creep up over the edge of the black collar and rise up into Hakkai’s cheeks. Even as the sick feeling in his gut went away, his heart sank. Gojyo was glad his best friend hadn’t been hurt, but...
But, this meant the most important person in his life had chosen someone else. A brief memory of his mother pushing him aside to hug his brother flashed through his mind.
Shit. Gojyo stomped on the memory. He needed a smoke. Averting his eyes from the silent Hakkai, Gojyo flipped his hair back and lifted his hips to dig his cigarettes out of the front pocket of his pants.
“Then that’s that.” Gojyo kept his eyes on his hands as he tapped out a stick and pulled it out of the pack with his lips. “Quit torturing your breakfast,” he said around the cigarette, patting his pockets for the lighter. “The miso’s pretty good.”
“Gojyo,” Hakkai said in his ear.
“Shit!” Gojyo jumped, unlit cigarette falling out of his mouth. “You’re like a frickin’ cat!”
Hakkai was the only person he’d ever met who could sneak up on him like that. He hadn’t even heard the breakfast tray being pushed aside. Gojyo looked into green eyes suddenly less than a foot away. Hakkai reached out, and Gojyo felt a cool, feathering touch on his neck. Instantly, his skin goosebumped.
“What’s this?” Hakkai asked quietly.
“What’s what? Oh. Crap.” Gojyo closed his eyes and let his head fall back onto the bed. Right. The dragon hickey. He decided to keep his eyes closed. There was no way in Hell he was gonna be able to look Hakkai in the face while he told him.
“Well, I was watching Hakuryu for you, and he decided to get friendly. Really friendly.” Gojyo wished he hadn’t dropped the cigarette. “Then, he kinda latched on and had at it, y’know?”
“Oh, dear.”
A snort escaped him, and Gojyo opened one eye to peer up at his friend. Hakkai was staring thoughtfully out the window.
“You don’t sound all that surprised,” Gojyo pointed out.
“I believe Hakuryu reacted to one of the, ah, side effects of my being temporarily possessed by a fire oni,” Hakkai explained.
“What?!” Gojyo sat up. “What the Hell happened at that farm? What fire oni?”
“I thought you said I only had to answer one question,” Hakkai teased, green eyes smiling.
“Screw that.” Gojyo grabbed Hakkai’s arm where it was draped over the edge of the bed. He looked his friend over carefully, really looked, and saw the circles under the eyes, the ashiness the healer’s normally clear skin developed when he used up lots of chi.
“Are you okay?” Gojyo felt like an ass for not noticing Hakkai’s condition before.
“I’m fine.” Hakkai moved his arm from under his and reached for his neck again. “Let me examine the bite.”
“It’s okay.” Gojyo intercepted the hand. “I’m not gonna let you use chi on me after you’ve been through a battle, ‘Kai.”
“Then I won’t,” Hakkai assured him.
Gojyo gave his friend one last warning look, then released his hand. With a reassuring smile, Hakkai reached up and tilted Gojyo’s head to the side and brushed back his hair. Hakkai’s fingers snagged at a snarl, and stopped instantly.
“You forgot to comb your hair after bathing again, didn’t you?” Hakkai scolded mildly.
“Er - yes?” Gojyo admitted.
Hakkai’s sigh sounded more like a smothered laugh. Gojyo felt the pad of the healer’s thumb brush lightly across his right temple.
“What am I to do with you?” Hakkai asked.
“Comb my hair?” Gojyo responded hopefully, batting his eyelashes.
This time Hakkai did laugh, and Gojyo’s heart lifted. When he could make Hakkai laugh, really laugh, not those crappy fake ones, it was like giving himself a present.
Hakkai’s fingers slipped out of his hair as the healer stood. Stepping over Gojyo’s outstretched legs, he picked up a comb from the night stand. Hakkai returned to his spot on Gojyo’s right side and sank gracefully to his knees. Gojyo shook his head slightly when he realized he had actually forgotten to comb his hair. Usually he “forgot” on purpose. Hakkai nudged Gojyo’s right arm still draped on the edge of the bed. He moved it so Hakkai could scoot in closer, letting his hand drop on his friend’s knee. Nimble fingers separated his hair into sections, Gojyo’s scalp tingling as Hakkai began combing from the bottom.
There was a time when the idea of someone touching his hair, let alone combing it, would have made Gojyo queasy. He couldn’t even remember the number of times as a child he had woken up being dragged out of bed by his hair, his mother’s face a twisted mask of rage and disgust. The regular girls at home knew better than to talk about or touch his hair, even in bed.
Then Hakkai came. Not only did the green-eyed man look at his red hair, and talk about it, he actually touched it. Dared to comb it, even.
The morning after a literal roll in the hay, Gojyo had woken up with the worst snarls ever. Dunking his head in the sink had made it worse. After a rueful check in the mirror, he decided it would be easier to cut out all the ensnarled bits of hay. He actually had the scissors in hand when a shocked Hakkai stopped him.
Before he realized it, Gojyo was sitting in a kitchen chair while Hakkai fetched his comb. Gojyo’s shoulders were almost hunched to his ears with tension, anticipating the stinging pulls, the ruthless jerking on his tender scalp. Instead, he was surprised by the painless ministrations under the patient, methodical fingers. As the tension drained away and Gojyo actually relaxed, he found having Hakkai brush his hair was a pleasantly sensual experience.
After that discovery, Gojyo “forgot” to brush his hair more frequently.
“Mmm,” Gojyo hummed in pleasure.
He scooted his narrow hips forward on the tatami mat, draping more of his forearm across Hakkai’s knees. The healer had moved past the de-tangling and was now brushing Gojyo’s hair in long, even strokes, left hand smoothing down a trail behind the comb. Eyes closed, Gojyo leaned into the strokes, enjoying the familiar touch. Under Hakkai’s devoted attention, he drifted into the relaxed state that was almost like the languid, mildly buzzed feeling he got after half a dozen cups of sake.
Fingertips firmly began massaging small circles on his scalp, and his dick stirred at the extra physical contact.
“Mmm, shit, yeah,” Gojyo moaned.
He was definitely getting the Hakkai special. No one could do massages like the knowledgeable healer. Gentle pressure encouraged him to tilt his head into Hakkai’s left palm, and Gojyo willingly complied, offering up his exposed neck in complete trust. Hakkai’s right thumb kneaded a line down the back of his neck until the healer’s fingers rested on his collar bone. The pad of Hakkai’s thumb traced a light circle around the dragon bite, sending a shiver down Gojyo’s body. He shifted open his legs to make a little room for the growing interest. It wasn’t unusual for him to get semi-hard from a lot of physical contact; he loved being touched, craved it. Maybe when Hakkai finished off the neck massage, Gojyo could slip out for a cigarette and a quick wank.
“I’m sorry I hurt you, Gojyo,” Hakkai whispered, his breath tickling the fine hairs on the nape of his neck.
“S’kay,” Gojyo responded automatically without opening his eyes.
He squeezed Hakkai’s knee. It wasn’t ‘Kai’s fault the dragon got all horn dog. What was he apologizing for? He knew ‘Kai’d never hurt him intentionally. He was his best friend. He loved him. Gojyo snorted at himself. Even his thoughts were getting a bit muzzy like he really had been drinking.
“What is it?” Hakkai asked.
“Just thinkin’ I’m getting drunk on you,“ Gojyo managed to lift a couple of fingers off Hakkai’s knee and waved them. ”Like really good sake.”
Silence. Gojyo suddenly realized what he just said probably sounded like a cheap pick up line.
“Shit. I didn’t mean-” Gojyo opened his eyes and started to straighten up, jerking his hand off Hakkai’s knee like it was going to burn him.
“Shh.”
Cool lips pressed lightly against the dragon bite. Gojyo froze, left hand braced on the tatami mat from when he started to push himself up, right hand hovering above Hakkai’s knee. He felt the damp tendrils from Hakkai’s freshly-washed face as the other man sighed and rested his forehead against Gojyo’s shoulder. Hakkai’s left arm dropped to the bed behind Gojyo and his right hand fell to the mat like a white, broken-winged bird.
“Gojyo,” Hakkai spoke so softly, the name was almost more air than sound. “I didn’t choose Sanzo over you.”
Gojyo’s heart thumped at having his earlier thoughts spoken out loud. Unbidden, his eyes darted to the monk’s still unmade bed. An echo of his earlier anger passed over him, like cloud shadow over a still pond. The monk had taken Hakkai away from him once, the night the youkai had gouged out his own eye. He wasn’t taking him again.
His mind made up, Gojyo scooped up Hakkai’s hand, cradling it to his chest. Even as Hakkai lifted his head from Gojyo’s shoulder and started to sit up, Gojyo turned in the open circle of Hakkai’s arms. The green eyes that met his were uncertain, but accepting. Hakkai had always accepted him. When Gojyo stared long enough, he could see his own reflection in the pupils, like a red flame against the night.
“Did he kiss you?” Gojyo asked.
The flush that rose up in the healer’s cheeks told Gojyo the answer before the curt nod. Still loosely clasping Hakkai’s hand to his chest, Gojyo reached out with his right hand and cupped the side of the other man’s face. The cool flesh quickly warmed beneath his large palm.
“Then, before you choose, you’ve gotta give me an equal chance, right?” Gojyo gave Hakkai his best bedroom smile.
TBC

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