Post-Journey Hakkai/Gojyo romantic angst, originally written for the LJ Anonymous Saiyuki Kink Meme. The things that are closest to you can be the hardest to see clearly; when guilt and shame are holding you back, sometimes you have to burn your bridges in order to move ahead. Rated R for mature content including indirect references to underage prostitution, two relatively mild sex scenes, and Gojyo's usual dirty mouth.